Its going to be official, I am going to graduate from AAU, and am an official Alumnai. My feelings, I am happy I am out, but I am not proud of every thing I did. Its a meh feeling. Personally and deeply, I didn't work very hard at AAU. The first year I was cranking work out, but then slowly I retracted from trying anything, but then this semester, I've probably worked harder then the years I didn't. It was during the years i didn't have work, and because my familly was paying for everything, it probably distracted me from working. My family encourage me to work, but not in the ways I wanted too. Add to the build up of distrust of political events happening. And this is where I wonder, should anyone pay for this. The thing about Art schools is usually teachers are no problems at all, its the system mostly. I don't find the assignments too difficult, they just really take alot of nights and time. Its great to go to art school, but you have to wonder, why in the 4 years Ive been here, that we never updated our printers and servers til now? Why was CS6 taken down 3 weeks into the semester, and clearly teachers stated we got to keep it for free? One of my teacher's comments from anatomy was something along the lines of, you gotta bother them to get something done. And why, can't I find a simple button to get a student ID card, or close a class? Or students joke how they pretty much distrust the student Aid centers. Or how there is legal reason they can't allow downloads from the school? Why is it that things are outdated on the site.
Or it was probably I forget. In those waking moments, of grinding and procrastinating, the human mind can easily forget what it wants to do. I try my best to say, all artist are human, and they are not perfect as we make them out to be. I need to be reminding of things that make art good for me.
In the end, I still thing art school is a competition lottery, but you can at least work for it under certain teachers to increase your odds get connections.
Though, I found a bit of a leeway this semester. I had a teacher who worked in anime productions, and that was cool. I called him sempai on his birthday, and he smashed the like button. Italy, combined with many amazing Watercolor artists through youtube including Mushishi artist and even @Laaovan, I feel I have my focus back on gouche and watercolor. Its weird because I always wanted to do thick mediums. I worked alot harder when I did my watercolor paintings. I found my love for my $15 Painter. And most of all, I think I have a new business partner, Jerry Chang. He was probably the only thing that really stuck out the whole semester and tried his best to make be appreciative of everything. I find it amazing, he never seems to get mad at anything. He so calm. I think we are in the talks of doing artist alley together. I just need to get the paper work together first. At least I appreciate the little things.
I have future plans I want to do a bit:
Get a fun job to help pay bills and contribute to my parent's mortgage.
File paper work for my business name and tax forums for
Saatchi's Artist gallery
Work through Hitrecord more.
Work on more watercolor and gouche pieces to update portfolio (my work is not focused enough)
Go back and finish Black fire.
Design wells fargo card.